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wyntir_knight) wrote2020-07-28 03:41 pm
wyntir_knight) wrote2020-07-28 03:41 pm
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July update
So, it's been a while since I've updated. Thought I should probably rectify that. I've been having a lot of trouble staying motivated lately. Ever since the COVID lockdowns have started I've been struggling. And it's funny - I see all these other writers who have become so very prolific during this time. I mean, after all, it's not like there's anything else to do, right?
But I'm now working from home full time and living with my parents, who are both in high risk categories. There's the drama that comes with the loss of routine and the lack of contact - and the fact that thanks to me being home my father no longer knows what day it is (he had a stroke last year and routine is incredibly important for his mental health). All of this seems to have sucked all of my creative juices and the doubt demons have taken up residence in my head once again.
I've been trying to work on my humanized transformers fic but I keep flip flopping about the characters, the pairings, and the dynamics. And the Wings Universe fic (Smokey and Swindle end the war) is more than a little stuck. In fact, it's a mess. It was originally going to be for Big Bang so it was limited to four POV characters. But now that I have distance from Big Bang, I've realized that this story is far too big for something simple. I mean, I'm basically making my own AU since the Wings Universe was never properly defined and I'm going to need to introduce a lot more characters to tell the full story. ... Of course, it doesn't help that I've been reading a couple of epic, sweeping fics that really show just how good an extended, multi-chapter, cast of thousands fic can be. And they make me want to try the same. So I have so many other characters demanding attention and the reminder that it's going to take more then "tru love" to end a multi-billion year old war.
So I've been flip flopping on what to do and how to do it, and meanwhile I've started replaying Fallout 4 and that's just raised the fallout bunny from the dead. I have this idea for a start-to-finish kind of fic that involves two vault survivors and deals with a lot of those side stories and unexplored avenues that are in the game. Mainly I really want a political fic because there is so much politics that are just ignored for the sake of the game's flow. ... I suppose that a game about rebuilding the Commonwealth Provisional Government and turning all of Boston into a settlement with solar and wind farms and rooftop gardens wasn't going to sell. And it would have been too difficult to manage a three pronged Minuteman/Brotherhood/Railroad attack on the Institute or even peace with the Institute.
Yeah, so that's the rambling update. A lack of writing but no lack of ideas and a possible shift into a new fandom for awhile.
But I'm now working from home full time and living with my parents, who are both in high risk categories. There's the drama that comes with the loss of routine and the lack of contact - and the fact that thanks to me being home my father no longer knows what day it is (he had a stroke last year and routine is incredibly important for his mental health). All of this seems to have sucked all of my creative juices and the doubt demons have taken up residence in my head once again.
I've been trying to work on my humanized transformers fic but I keep flip flopping about the characters, the pairings, and the dynamics. And the Wings Universe fic (Smokey and Swindle end the war) is more than a little stuck. In fact, it's a mess. It was originally going to be for Big Bang so it was limited to four POV characters. But now that I have distance from Big Bang, I've realized that this story is far too big for something simple. I mean, I'm basically making my own AU since the Wings Universe was never properly defined and I'm going to need to introduce a lot more characters to tell the full story. ... Of course, it doesn't help that I've been reading a couple of epic, sweeping fics that really show just how good an extended, multi-chapter, cast of thousands fic can be. And they make me want to try the same. So I have so many other characters demanding attention and the reminder that it's going to take more then "tru love" to end a multi-billion year old war.
So I've been flip flopping on what to do and how to do it, and meanwhile I've started replaying Fallout 4 and that's just raised the fallout bunny from the dead. I have this idea for a start-to-finish kind of fic that involves two vault survivors and deals with a lot of those side stories and unexplored avenues that are in the game. Mainly I really want a political fic because there is so much politics that are just ignored for the sake of the game's flow. ... I suppose that a game about rebuilding the Commonwealth Provisional Government and turning all of Boston into a settlement with solar and wind farms and rooftop gardens wasn't going to sell. And it would have been too difficult to manage a three pronged Minuteman/Brotherhood/Railroad attack on the Institute or even peace with the Institute.
Yeah, so that's the rambling update. A lack of writing but no lack of ideas and a possible shift into a new fandom for awhile.