It just occurred to me: In 15 days I will be leaving for my first ever Transformers Con, and this will be the first time I have ever travelled by plane alone ... in fact, this is the first time I've ever gone on a trip alone (going to and from University doesn't really count). I'm suddenly feeling just a tad nervous.
Silly, really. I mean, I'm a grown woman. Taking a plane to another city shouldn't be a big deal. Staying in a big hotel room by myself for five days shouldn't be a big deal. Manoevering around Ottawa, O'Hare, and Cincinnati International Airports alone shouldn't be a big deal. And yet, somehow all of this is.
The What-ifs are starting to infect my dreams again. Some of them are valid while some are patently ridiculous, and some are just spawning from my own self-esteem issues. It's not a big deal, but as usual, I'm making a mountain out of a molehill.
I suppose that it doesn't help any that I don't like plane travel. I love to fly, and those little prop-jets and puddle-jumpers and beachcraft and two-man gliders are just the best little vehicles ever invented! I adore those little planes! But those big planes *shudder* I hate those. They fly by magic and I don't trust magic. And don't go telling me about thrust and lift. I understand those concepts just fine, I just don't think they apply to vehicles that weigh several tonnes. ... Yeah, laugh it up, I won't change my mind on this one *snerk*
Seriously though, I know this trip'll be great. I will enjoy myself so much that the time will just go by way too quickly. I will get to meet all my new friends from LJ and the Cell. It'll be totally great. ... so why am I so nervous?
Silly, really. I mean, I'm a grown woman. Taking a plane to another city shouldn't be a big deal. Staying in a big hotel room by myself for five days shouldn't be a big deal. Manoevering around Ottawa, O'Hare, and Cincinnati International Airports alone shouldn't be a big deal. And yet, somehow all of this is.
The What-ifs are starting to infect my dreams again. Some of them are valid while some are patently ridiculous, and some are just spawning from my own self-esteem issues. It's not a big deal, but as usual, I'm making a mountain out of a molehill.
I suppose that it doesn't help any that I don't like plane travel. I love to fly, and those little prop-jets and puddle-jumpers and beachcraft and two-man gliders are just the best little vehicles ever invented! I adore those little planes! But those big planes *shudder* I hate those. They fly by magic and I don't trust magic. And don't go telling me about thrust and lift. I understand those concepts just fine, I just don't think they apply to vehicles that weigh several tonnes. ... Yeah, laugh it up, I won't change my mind on this one *snerk*
Seriously though, I know this trip'll be great. I will enjoy myself so much that the time will just go by way too quickly. I will get to meet all my new friends from LJ and the Cell. It'll be totally great. ... so why am I so nervous?