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It's been almost a full month since I last posted. Sadly, nothing really came of it because I slipped further into depression and started cutting people off and stopped writing entirely due to a massive creative blockage. That seems to have finally been pushed aside. A short vacation to the head and lights of Las Vegas helped, and now I'm trying to focus on NaNoWriMo, and that's also helping out a little (though I need to get out and see people - go to write ins, stop being a shut-in, actually get out and see friends!)
Now, as I said, I'm better. I'm finding myself to be profoundly tired (like a deep bone weariness) but I'm feeling less like a crazy cat lady and more like a person rather than an over-used trope.
So, my plans are to work on NaNo this month. I have taken part in NaNo for eight consecutive years now and have won twice (once with a fanfiction that desperately needs a re-edit and once with an original novel that is still not complete). This year will be different though. Not only am I planning on finishing my novel, I am planning on posting it too. I'm not sure how many people will read it (the last time I posted original fiction it was pretty much ignored - which is fine; Gothic Horror isn't everyone's cup of tea), but I'm going to post it anyways, just to get it out there. And no, I am not planning on officially publishing my work. A) it's too close to fanfiction (drawing influence from the Lovecraft Circle and the Call of Cthulu game) and B) there is no way that I am good enough a writer to publish. Maybe in a few years, but not now.
This does all mean that I will be delayed at least another month with the next few chapters of Polyhex Candidate. Honestly, this delay is probably a good thing because I was becoming highly disenchanted with both the work and the fandom and I needed a good long while to work my head out of my aft. Polyhex will be completed and then I have plans to continue The Nightingale Effect and Return to Darkness will be completely rewritten and reposted as will Devil You Know. Beyond that, we'll see. I think between my original novel and all that potential fanfic, I have more than enough to deal with before I further speculate on more.
Now, as I said, I'm better. I'm finding myself to be profoundly tired (like a deep bone weariness) but I'm feeling less like a crazy cat lady and more like a person rather than an over-used trope.
So, my plans are to work on NaNo this month. I have taken part in NaNo for eight consecutive years now and have won twice (once with a fanfiction that desperately needs a re-edit and once with an original novel that is still not complete). This year will be different though. Not only am I planning on finishing my novel, I am planning on posting it too. I'm not sure how many people will read it (the last time I posted original fiction it was pretty much ignored - which is fine; Gothic Horror isn't everyone's cup of tea), but I'm going to post it anyways, just to get it out there. And no, I am not planning on officially publishing my work. A) it's too close to fanfiction (drawing influence from the Lovecraft Circle and the Call of Cthulu game) and B) there is no way that I am good enough a writer to publish. Maybe in a few years, but not now.
This does all mean that I will be delayed at least another month with the next few chapters of Polyhex Candidate. Honestly, this delay is probably a good thing because I was becoming highly disenchanted with both the work and the fandom and I needed a good long while to work my head out of my aft. Polyhex will be completed and then I have plans to continue The Nightingale Effect and Return to Darkness will be completely rewritten and reposted as will Devil You Know. Beyond that, we'll see. I think between my original novel and all that potential fanfic, I have more than enough to deal with before I further speculate on more.