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July, July, July
22 July 2019 13:29So, I've officially dropped out of the Big Bang. Thankfully my artist was working with a second person so I haven't screwed them over with this decision this late in the game. Things were just getting way too stressful and I was writing less and less as the month went on. I had far too much left to write to finish the plot and while I might (big might) have been able to get the work drafted out by the end of the month, there was no way that I was going to get it edited, betaed, and ready for posting by the deadline.
I'm honestly feeling good about the decision. This means that I can put the many, many (far too many!) subplots back in the story and give it the length, focus, and depth a story like this requires. It grew from a simple Smokey/Swindle fic and grew to include an Onslaught/Blast Off relationship, the other combiners teams, the Seekers, and Soundwave. It was examining the idea of free will and just how many the Decepticons have a choice any more about their team, and that led into the question of the Autobot combiners. Do they have free will if they've never known anything but the war they were built for? Prowl/Red Alert and Ratchet/Twins were working their way in and then Jazz and Mirage made an appearance. And then on top of it all, I suddenly realized that I had made Shockwave instrumental and then forgot about him. It just became far too large for 20K. .... I'm honestly not sure if 100k will be enough and certainly ten chapters is going to be far too short.
So, I'm still working on "Bleeding Daylight" (titled after a line in Lovers in Dangerous Times) and I've gone back to "Being Human" as well as several shorter fics that I've been musing (including my first attempt at a heat-fic). I'm just going to take it all slowly without the pressure of a deadline and the "gag-order". We were not to post anything before the official release. No point in spoiling things :)
As for other things, Parent A is still in hospital, other Parent B is still stressed to breaking, and we are all fighting the apathy, lack of communication, and general egos of the hospital staff in order to get Parent A into a good rehab program and out of the transfer ward they've been in for the last three weeks!
I'm honestly feeling good about the decision. This means that I can put the many, many (far too many!) subplots back in the story and give it the length, focus, and depth a story like this requires. It grew from a simple Smokey/Swindle fic and grew to include an Onslaught/Blast Off relationship, the other combiners teams, the Seekers, and Soundwave. It was examining the idea of free will and just how many the Decepticons have a choice any more about their team, and that led into the question of the Autobot combiners. Do they have free will if they've never known anything but the war they were built for? Prowl/Red Alert and Ratchet/Twins were working their way in and then Jazz and Mirage made an appearance. And then on top of it all, I suddenly realized that I had made Shockwave instrumental and then forgot about him. It just became far too large for 20K. .... I'm honestly not sure if 100k will be enough and certainly ten chapters is going to be far too short.
So, I'm still working on "Bleeding Daylight" (titled after a line in Lovers in Dangerous Times) and I've gone back to "Being Human" as well as several shorter fics that I've been musing (including my first attempt at a heat-fic). I'm just going to take it all slowly without the pressure of a deadline and the "gag-order". We were not to post anything before the official release. No point in spoiling things :)
As for other things, Parent A is still in hospital, other Parent B is still stressed to breaking, and we are all fighting the apathy, lack of communication, and general egos of the hospital staff in order to get Parent A into a good rehab program and out of the transfer ward they've been in for the last three weeks!