End of May update
30 May 2019 13:51![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wyntir_knightSo, updates. I've spent the month working on my RBB entry. I'm about halfway through with the main plot and fighting the urge to start posting to get feedback. I really need to figure out how to find a beta. Having someone to bounce the chapters off of would help ease my mind on things. See, there's this little voice of doubt in the back of my mind. It's busy reminding me that we have fewer than half the artists that we have writers meaning that there's a really good chance that some of us whon't get artists. And since I'm writing two rare pairings in a currently-rarely-used corner of the fandom, the voice is trying to convince me that I'll be one of the ones who's left without a partner in this endeavour. ... But it's a stupid voice and I'm trying to ignore it.
I think that the big problem is that I'm seriously on edge. Parent A is recovering physically from the stroke but is profoundly confused. Apparently bladder infections cause confusion in people with cerebral damage. Who knew? So Parent A is alternating on a variety of delusions - the Queen of England has granted them all the monarchy's powers and they're now in charge of the British Navy and will nuke Gibraltar; we have secretly moved them to Saudi Arabia for treatment; they're running for President of the US in 2020 (Parent does not live in the US nor do they have citizenship); they own the hospital and is going to fire all the employees; and most recently that we're all moving to Beijing for some reason. They're also driving the staff to distraction with a near constant need to lecture to all of them - Parent A used to be a university professor.
So that's happening and it's resulting in Parent B feeling incredibly fragile and being close to tears constantly. And then a few days ago I got into a pretty major car accident. No one was seriously hurt so there's that but it's still a massive pain in the ass.
So, I'm keeping my head down, I'm focusing on my Big Bang entry, and I'm reminding myself that there will be a few people who will want to read a Smokescreen/Swindle and Onslaught/Blast Off fic set in the G1 Wings of Honour 'verse. And those people are who I need to focus on.
And then I can focus on all the bunnies that are busy nibbling at me -- Humanized TF/Avengers fic, finishing up the Smokescreen/Ratchet story, and this really bizarre high school AU idea that's been floating around for some unknown reason ....
I think that the big problem is that I'm seriously on edge. Parent A is recovering physically from the stroke but is profoundly confused. Apparently bladder infections cause confusion in people with cerebral damage. Who knew? So Parent A is alternating on a variety of delusions - the Queen of England has granted them all the monarchy's powers and they're now in charge of the British Navy and will nuke Gibraltar; we have secretly moved them to Saudi Arabia for treatment; they're running for President of the US in 2020 (Parent does not live in the US nor do they have citizenship); they own the hospital and is going to fire all the employees; and most recently that we're all moving to Beijing for some reason. They're also driving the staff to distraction with a near constant need to lecture to all of them - Parent A used to be a university professor.
So that's happening and it's resulting in Parent B feeling incredibly fragile and being close to tears constantly. And then a few days ago I got into a pretty major car accident. No one was seriously hurt so there's that but it's still a massive pain in the ass.
So, I'm keeping my head down, I'm focusing on my Big Bang entry, and I'm reminding myself that there will be a few people who will want to read a Smokescreen/Swindle and Onslaught/Blast Off fic set in the G1 Wings of Honour 'verse. And those people are who I need to focus on.
And then I can focus on all the bunnies that are busy nibbling at me -- Humanized TF/Avengers fic, finishing up the Smokescreen/Ratchet story, and this really bizarre high school AU idea that's been floating around for some unknown reason ....